The Fullness of Me Amy

Yesterday morning, I took a walk. When I crested the hill to the path I was taking, I was presented with a Waning Gibbous moon, the first phase after the Full Moon occurs.

I thought, oh no, I missed the full moon. Usually I see the full moon in the early hours on my way to yoga class. I didn’t go to yoga on Thursday, so I’d missed my chance this month.

We have all of these terms and ideas about the phases of the moon, when really, the moon is always full. The moon itself does not change. What changes is our perspective of the moon. Only because of where we are in the universe at certain times of the month does that perspective shift.

As I saw my shadow, I thought, it’s quite the same with people. God sees us always as our fullest selves. God sees all of the parts of us that make us God’s whole, unique creation. Other humans see us in phases. Some people at work may only know one phase of me, that sliver of a waxing crescent. Long time friends and partners may see me mostly in my waning gibbous phase; almost all of me but never the whole.

How do I see myself? Do I live as my fullest, unique, God-known self? Can I know myself as God does? Do the perspectives of others shade that fullness?

I walked the wide oval of the path ahead and on my way home, I faced the sun. As it shined brightly on my face, I realized that I am in a phase of self discovery. Engaging the parts of me that have been shaded by events, people and chapters of my history. I am closer to God and my God-known self as I discover, learn, enjoy and revel in God’s full creation!