Between Prayer (Lisa)

Dear God,

I am praying on the beautiful word between, a word that suggests movement from one place to another. It should feel full of promise but often it is filled with more fear than a calm sense of hope in what is to come.

When I am between, I can go either way, left or right, backward or forward. Things can float upward or sink back down. This being in-between can feel like chaos, leaving my head spinning in an anxious limbo space until a decision or movement is made, right? Right? that is, until we find ourselves in between again.

It may be the position we find ourselves in most constantly, in between. So, what is this nebulous floaty place of neither here nor there? I don't know the answer to that, but it intrigues me to consider this…

You God, who emptied your whole self of yourself, unfolding out, spilling out into infinite nothingness, You created this great elegant universe. You took chaos and gave it a semblance of order, by making this invisible web, this glue that is in-between all that we can see. Without it, the planets, stars, and whole galaxies would fly off in all directions in utter chaos but they do not because of You. You created it all, all we can see and the invisible presence that makes the visible move more thoughtfully. It makes me cry, it is all so beautiful!

Oh God, You are too much for me to fathom so I go to what is grasp-able for me. You are in-between. You make all sense out of all chaos in the universe and in my life. You sit with me here and there, in front and behind, above and below on every plane of my life and in my very being but You are also the comforting in-between, holding me together, hugging me, comforting me, giving me courage and strength for what comes next. Of whom shall I be afraid? Of what shall I be afraid?

I need to ponder this more Lord but I thank you for these thoughts and I hope in sharing them they give others comfort, for all the in-betweens in their lives. Lord help make it so! Amen